Hahahah!

I go to class this afternoon and nobody was there. So, I called an admin and asked if classes were canceled. Yes, I'm sorry I thought someone told you, she says. Second time everybody in the school knows classes were canceled except me. Yay! This is fun! I was wondering why people were giving me funny looks more than usual as I walked to class.

Even the weather sucks...

In September I asked one of the admins in our department when will it cool down. She looked at me with a straight face and said November. Of course I thought she was kidding but I guess she wasn't. It's finally cooled down the past couple of days. It went from summer to winter in the span of 1 day.

This place sucks...

Zhangzhou will chew you up and spit you out, don't come here alone.

Internet

When a webpage will load through the great firewall of China, but loads faster through a proxy, you know something is seriously messed up.

Don't get me wrong...

...I still intend to study Chinese and all that, but I just don't really want to live in small town China anymore. I've seen enough. I just have to decide where I want to go next. But, I won't leave until my contract is finished in June 2009.

Something is different...

Something is different about my students this term. Even the students who are normally very active and interested have changed. I'm not sure why but it's really starting to suck. I'm ready to go home now, just have to wait for my contract to finish.

Nothing...

Nothing to report.

Study

I don't study enough. That is all.

Ohh, another analogy!

Learning a second language to a native level is like losing weight. It requires a long term sustained effort which is unbelievably easy to quit. How many people do you know who have lost weight only to gain it back? Maybe they lose it, it comes back, they lose it again, it comes back etc, but it never stays off. It's just like learning a language. From day one you can't stop, ever, or you start all over again.

Had to restart...again

So, at the end of the summer I'm cruising along with my hanzi 汉字 learning characters like there is no tomorrow. Then, on a whim, I decide to try the Heisig method of learning Chinese characters. Granted he did it for studying kanji which are Chinese characters used in the Japanese writing system, but its the same thing basically. Anyway, I download an excerpt from his newest book Remembering Simplified Hanzi, and I do 50 in one day. I couldn't believe it! The most I had done my way was 20. But I did 50 easily, and the only reason I didn't do all 94 in the excerpt was because I was so pissed that it was so easy! Here I am busting my ass doing it the traditional way for 2 months and then I come across this method. It destroyed my motivation to study characters. Then, I went to Shanghai for a week and didn't do my SRS repetitions so when I got back I had like 200 reps to do. Today, after much agonizing, I decided to delete over 350 characters I entered over a 2 month period and start from scratch using only the Heisig method.

I was really getting burned out on learning Chinese after this new discovery. Other things occupied my time like teaching and what not. So, for a while learning Chinese was on the back burner. But, another weekend in small town China with nothing to do has cured me. It's back to learning. I think the reason most people don't learn a second language to a native level is simple because they give up. Either they reach a point where they are satisfied with their ability, or they realize the enormous effort just isn't worth it and stop completely. So, to prevent this from happening I got rid of over 350 character's that were really pissing me off and ruining my fun. Starting over sucks, but it's not like I'm deleting knowledge from my mind, just a computer program I use. What I have learned will stay with me as long as I keep on going, and don't stop.

The other thing I have been thinking about lately is that I don't seem to be getting any better. I still can't have a real conversation, just say a few words and sentences. But, I think about it like this. When I was a kid I'd always ask my mom to measure me and see if I'd grown any taller. I did this every day. And eventually I realized I wasn't going to see changes every day, it would take months and years before I could notice any difference in the marks on the wall. It's the same with learning Chinese. If I compare myself to 1 month ago, there isn't much difference, but when I compare myself to when I first came, there is a huge difference. I just gotta keep it up...

Studying Chinese has really changed the way I teach

Before studying Chinese my prep work before classes was pretty poor. I was the kind of teacher who winged it most of the time. These days, I am planning a lot more and trying to use more visual aids. I've also insisted on using the microphone so everyone can hear me clearly, and power point so students can read what I say. I think it's definitely helped the students focus more.

The other cool thing is, I've gained a lot more respect now that students can send me simple messages in Chinese and I can respond to them. I still have a lot of trouble with speaking and listening but reading is getting better. Just think, 2 months ago I could not understand a simple text message in Chinese. I have learned a lot in a short period of time, but I have a long way to go.

I have been slacking with my studies more than I should be, listening to English music a little too much, watching a DVD here and there in English. But, I try to stay on track by reminding myself it's just a waste of time. I already speak English, so what's the point?

Learning a foreign language in a classroom doesn't work

I told my students our second class that learning a foreign language in a classroom doesn't work very well. They didn't believe me. It's a good thing for my bank account, but a bad thing for them. It should be obvious after 5 or 6 years of study and they can't even put together a simple sentence. Instead, they blame their teachers or themselves for not being good enough. How sad. They don't even realize it's the fact they are trying to learn English in the classroom that is the problem. Then I proceeded to tell them how to teach themselves. I had to simplify it a lot since their English is at such a low level. Hopefully, they will try some of the things I suggested, primarily listening and reading 24/7, non-stop, ALL DAY LONG with a good dictionary in hand.

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I have nothing to say right now.

My obvious realization of the summer...

If I don't spend so much time doing nothing, I can really accomplish a lot.

I'm alive...

...just busy. I love my job and my students.