So this is what it takes...

...for me to learn a language. The idea of learning a foreign language is so huge in my mind that I would rather do just about anything than try to learn one. But, I have finally found out what it takes to actually do it. Some people can just make a decision to learn another language and they do it. They can become fluent while not even living in a country that speaks the language. I am not one of those people. The only way I can overcome my resistance to learning the language is to put myself into a situation where it becomes necessary for survival.

That's kind of sad.